Im JuZ mE.. u CaN't ChAnGe Me

2005-11-13T11:54:00.000+08:00

4 walls,
no sunshine,
as if it is dooms day.
cold as ice,
darkness fills the room.
fear have covered my heart,
the sound of thunder plays in my mind.
in fear,
i cried 4 help.
will anyone hear me?
hear this girl's cries?
NO!
thousand of knives had stabbed me in the heart,
tears rolling down,
like a river.
NO use crying!
people keep condemming me
but im just like a stone;
no feelings, no heart
ORDER! ORDER!
confused, innocent
down with a statement.
"Sentence 2 death"
i felt my my mouth was heavy,
2 defend myself.
but the decision is made.
no option but 2 follow order...
waiting 4 the day 2 come by,
n soon it arrives,
n im free from this world....

Hari Raya is cuming....

2005-11-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

hey there... Hari Raya is cuming... still gt one dae of fasting... been bz cleaning the hse... tired man... bt nvm... hari raya cn enjoy 2 the core n i cnt wait 2 get collection(hhaha..money,money, here i cme).. cnt wait 4 tht dae 2 cme.. visit my relatives, see all my cuzzins.. get 2 play wit em(aiyoh fad! u still small kid huh?!haha), joke around... n best part u cn eat different variety of food.. yum,yum.. hahaah.. ok, i gtg nw cz im quite bz nw... after hari raya i will update again... outz!

i love eeuu Faiz...

2005-10-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

I never really knew you...You were just another friend...But when I got to know you,I let my heart unbend... I couldn't help past memoriesthat would only make me cry...I had to forget my past...and give love another try...So I've fallen in love with you...and I'll never let you goI love you more than anyone...I just had to let you know...And if you ever wonder why...I don't know what I'll say... But I'll never stop loving youeach and every dayMy feelings for you will never change... Just know my feelings are true... Just remember one thing... I Love You!

Frost tears

2005-10-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

everyone is sick of this,but i must say again,the vain these people put me through,and the good times that i miss.if only i knew why,why they didnt like me,then you wouldnt hear my poor heart,through your head, crying, crying.how much ive cried,how much ive lost,i see them smiling through the frost.the frost on that window,stands for all the loners,and all the widows,but dont forget that little girl,whos hiding in the shadows

GoThIc ChArAcTeR

2005-10-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

Life is bleeding all over the world the color red.Flowing freely from the vein, the knife is stained with the world's blood.I'll drink the man's percious poison to experience the night.The flashback of our time I want once more.I have become a Gothic character thirsty for death.The light goes out; I see the truth no more.With my antagonist I have a fight before me.Too agonizing to bare, I'll take the world's dagger and end my detour.

yesterdae

2005-10-20T14:09:00.000+08:00

2005-09-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

That's me!

Revenge is wadd u get in silence....

2005-08-28T15:15:00.000+08:00

u r so mean! u backstab me in silence.. i got to knw about it.. who do u tink u r? u make me suffer in silence knowing u have been backstabbing me all this while.. but nvm.. i will let u suffer in silence 2 but worse than u expect it to be; worse than death.. u can enjoy now but soon u will suffer like the wae u did it 2 me.. there's no turning back 4 u.. i have been quiet all this while but u had exceeded ur limits in wadeva that u do 2 hurt me.. now its my turn to do so... hahaha.. i actually dunn wanna revenge but its way off the limits... revenge is alwaes sweet.. haha... i'll make sure u get the sweetest of my revenge... u r so selfish.. u alwaes tink of urself.. who do u tink u r?? a princess?? puihh!!! so disgusted.. u actually make use of ur beauty 2 seduce ppl n make them do wadd u say.. u tink u r so pretty izzit? my grandmother is much more prettier than u.. ur prettyness wont last long as ur heart is not pure as in u r a bad person in silence.. if u wanna get back at me, y not u say it face 2 face wit me? u scared or wadd?? u dont have 2 seduce other ppl 2 get back at me rite? u r worse than a bitch! last time u called me a bitch but now u r a shameless bitch!! u r such a coward! fancy seducing, using other ppl 2 get back at me.. if i am the old me, ur dead meat! u r so sellfish! nvr tink of other ppl's feelings...if u r the person reading it or u know u r the person, u better watch out coz fad's out there 4 ur sweetest revenge 2 be fulfilled!

long time nvr update

2005-08-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

long time nvr update.. soo sorry.. i juz finish my common test.. 4 the past few weeks i have been bz.. my common test, my drama performance 4 the NDP thingy.. n now guess wat?? im sick.. i had lost my voice due to yesterday not only yesterdae, but last thursday oso i had been shouting like a crazy gal.. man yesterday i came home late around 11 plus.. got drama performance at NAFA.. wow.. the school was damn confusing n nice.. really.. wen we reach at NAFA, the SYF drama was getting ready; wearing make up.. wow.. it was nice.. then we wen to the blackbox.. n the whole room was black.. so nice but it was damn cold after some time u r in the room... then the SYF people started to rehearse their performances.. it was damn crazy as it was full of laughter.. Syikin was noisy n funny.. she alwaes make ppl laugh in the middle of a tense situation.. she will alwaes say 'wow'... n that makes ppl laugh.. haha..the NAFA had an event of the dunno wat 05/06... wen the time of the performances, the guest of honour was Mr Kirpal.. then the Bowen drama perform first.. man it was terrific... n next was the Bowen Chinese opera or drama.. i dunno la... then after that was, a drama called 'teochew porridge'.. quite funny la.. after that was the chinese tongue twister by NAFA students.. veri funny.. after that was performed by a NAFA student named Barney.. man.. it was so like RA.. some sort of like that.. man he talked dirty.. summore wen he take out his chocolate bar n started rubbing it.. it was so disgusting... but it was hilarious.. after the whole thingy the whole bowen drama took photo wif the VIP; Mr Kirpal..we were so noisy.. we kept posing...haha.. n u know wat?? the person taking the photo was an actor; Andrew Lim.. at first i couldn't recognise him.. but wen i look closely, it was him.. now he is slim oready... haha... man yesterday was really a great fun... totally crazy.. haha.. i'll stop here 4 now coz i gtg now.. oritez.. c ya... outz...

Feeling sooo *@#$%&

2005-07-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

im feeling sooo fuck up 2 dae... haiz... im soo tired plus noo mood.. wad the fuck man.. im feeling down 2day.. i have no one to tok 2 except tis comp... haiz... ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so fustrated!!!!!! i feel like crying, like shouting n i feel like killing myself... y muz i feel tis wae???????? nvm la.. im sorry if i said 2 much of the bad words.. i juz need to let go of my frust... gtg now.. i really have no mood 2 tok 2 dae.. outz!

2005-07-20T16:07:00.000+08:00

:-) Friendship (-:
Many people will walk in and out of your life.But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.To handle yourself, use your head;To handle others, use your heart.

Friends
Anger is only one letter short of dangerIf someone betrays you once, it is his fault;If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.
Great minds discuss ideas;Average minds discuss events;Small minds discuss people...

yesterdae... n today..

2005-07-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

well yesterdae after skool, fira went to ma hse.. so excited n happy 2 c her coz we nvr seen each other 4 quite a long time.. then she on my comp, then listen to songs.. both of us went totally crazy.. my sis was at the study room wit us toking to her boifwen, n she ask us to kip quiet.. haha.. i mean that is me n fira.. two person onli oready havoc.. then we started 2 look like gothic.. fira played wit ma hair as in she make a gothic style 2 ma hair.. haha.. then she put on the eyeliner n mascara 4 me.. she started 2 shout bcoz she sae i look different frm the original me.. n she herself cant recognise me even though she is the one doing it.. haha.. after tat we took fotos of each other at my phone.. haha.. both of us like nvr take photo b4... so chaotic.. haha.. fira sae i photogynic.. i sae where got??? im so ugly.. somemore dunno how to make a pose..haha.. then after all that Fira n Me went to cp wit my mum, auntie n cuzz... haha.. then at the macdonalds heard ppl whistle but dunno who.. Fira told me it was Dan, Anaz & Raden.. fira like panic wen c them.. i ask her y.. she sae she told Dan tat she wanna go home after skool but instead she went to my hse.. then i sae nvm la..after going library, go popular, saw Dan, Anaz & Raden again.. they were toking 2 my mum.. then i heard Dan sae Anaz 'cuci mata'.. Anaz ask my mum " Auntie wat is 'cuci mata?" Haha.. my mum started laughing.. Anaz," Auntie y U laugh?? Im not a bad person ok?" all of us started to laugh.. My mum," Tmrw i tell u ok?" haha.. then we started laughing coz anaz reaction was veri funni..haha.. poor anaz kena buli by Dan.. after we walked at cp, we went home... Haiz.. tdy i got nthg 2 do.. so i write tis 2 update my blog.. tdy wen recess time cikgu Aini ask me 2 go n buy her curry puff.. then went do down the stairs saw Khalid, Haikal n Fathul toking 2 one guy who work in the skool.. the after that i came back to tat same stairs 2 go up.. Khalid," U ok or not?" i sae,"ok wat onli a bit crazi" haha.. tat time i was realli crazy.. haha.. haikal asked me wat is the name of the gal beside me.. i sae aidah.. haha.. they sae can i get to knw u?? haha.. at MT room aidah sae 2 me," i feel so insulted" i ask y?? she sae dunno.. Aidah u veri weird la... hehe.. then masitah sae she wanna join back band.. she oso ask me to join.. i wanna join but i scared la.. i dunn even knw the basic.. sufian, ahmad n maz wanna join.. i sae to maz i c first after i discuss wit my mum...haiz.. dunno whether wanna join band or not.. but i like band so much... dunno la.. jon sae 2 me dunn join band.. haiz.. i dunno la.. i'll stop here 4 tdy.. my hands oready tired typing all these.. haha... c ya!!!

2005-07-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

2005-07-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

tdy so boring...

2005-07-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

tdy i neber go skool coz im feeling damm tired n im a lil bit sick coz yesterdae i juz came back frm camp.. the camp was so damm boring n it was overall not fun but except 4 dae two we went 2 labrador park 2 play scavenger hunt.. it was tiring but also fun.. the scenery of the sea was so nice.. i wish i could stae there longer.. the after scavenger hunt, we have our lunch n after lunch we have dragon boating.. it was so fun.. wen we r near to other group boats, we would splash sea water at each other.. haha.. we were all wet.. then we have a mini race and my group won.. yeah! Dakota group 11, U ROcK! my thumb was blue black wen dragon boating.. haiz.. so painful... haiz.. rite now my whole body is aching.. so tired.. okies 4 now.. i wanna rest again.. c ya!

2005-07-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

haiz.. tmrw got camp... i feel i like i dunn wanna go camp.. like no mood like that.. usually im alwaes excited to go camp.. but tis year, dunno y like no mood to go camp tmrw.. but wat 2 do.. its compulsary... i wish it was not compulsary.. i will be going 4 three days n two night... tdy oso i feel veri bored... haiz... want to go town tdy, but like lazy like that... aiyoh.... confused, confused.. hahaha.. i will becoming crazy sooner or later or i become oready crazy.. okies 4 now.. i gtg.. c ya....

tdy...

2005-06-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

tdy morning around 12 plus am, called faiz.. he is at the challet wit his frenz.. so noisy but i can hear that it is alot of fun at the challet.. haha.. then tis gal called rachel, her voice so cute.. haha.. she finally know me as in the appearance.. then haikal, khalid, shahirul oso tok 2 me.. then fathul oso.. but he sing la.. haha.. his voice is damm nice.. he will be entering the malay singing competition which is 'Anugerah'... i tink he can win.. hopefully... All the best to ya fathul..then faiz tok 2 me in one kind of tone which is cute.. haha.. Now i dunno tdy got plan or not.. confused,confused.. but the gd news is my bro cuzz is finally back frm studies frm other country but i dunno wat country..he is studying all those arabic stuff. he invite me to my grandmother's hse this afternoon.. i wonder how he look now?? more handsome??? more darker?? hahaha.. i dunno.. but b4 he called my sis cuzz called.. she invite me to go to her house or workplace 2 pass her disc n collect my souvenior that she bought wen she go honeymoon.. haiz..plus my mum invite me go shopping at bishan...haiz...confused, confused...i really wanna c my bro cuzz as i really miss him veri much... ok 4 now.. i wanna sought out my confusion.. so i will update soon again.. c ya...

???rindu??

2005-06-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

Rindu datang lagi... ( khas uat Faiz, sayangku )
Rindu...
Rinduku datang kembali Walaupun sering kali hadir
Namunku tak pasti Adakah bertahan untuk selamanya....
Sayang....
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Sayang di kala kau tiada di sisi
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Sedarlah kasih..
kau cukup bermakna buatku hidup dan matiku
Setiap helaan nafasku Menyebut namamu..
Sayang....

Yahoo! Finally i did it!

2005-06-22T11:55:00.000+08:00

i finally did it!! i finally did my blog!!
i juz started my my blog.. so i will keep updating soon..
so c ya...